Tyler Graffam

F*** me dead I just received your letters from the postman and realised that I have not updated this since Hammertime was in the charts… You would not believe the amount of people that are totally stalking me. I prostrate myself in sorrow and beg thy forgiveness..

I am flat out with sleeping my way to the top, homeschooling five children, just generally being an embarrassment to the taxman, my day seems to be a litany of stuff and giggles from my partner kicking me out of bed to never. I am wondering if I paid mine electricity bill. but this damned rock is heavy.

I make a solemn vow if one more person emails me to ask why I haven’t posted today I will start posting pictures of toe fungus, or fecal murals. One day I will find my magic genie! I keep looking, anyway!

But really, sorry I haven’t posted in a while guys, I have been so busy with everything going on in my life, I barely make the time to twitter anymore! I do have a new favorite way for people to talk to me though, thats stickam! I know its been a while since I have done stickam, but the people really love me there and I can usually get about 40 viewers going on my stream at the same time. But, most of them are just internet whores looking to have cybersex… And we all know that I am not into that… Cough. But really, my life has been getting better, thanks for asking. I have been spending a lot more times with friends, and a lot less time with internet people that I will never meet though. Even though I love you guys.

Oh by the way, the random part is, a random blog post generator… If you want it… Here ya go: http://www.aussiebloggers.com.au/blogpost.html

Okay, even though the drama that has occoured throughout the past week or so on my last post including Mcintec founder Jason, and me, I thought I would make a apology/thank you post for everyone in the community, and especially Jason. The reason why I am doing it today, is that it is Mcintec’s 1 year anniversary.

What the community has done for me: The mcintec community has been a really positive experience for me, and throughout an almost year communication with them, I have learned so many things, and talked to some of the most amazing people, that I cant thank them enough. When I first came into chatroom through ustream, I didn’t know the first thing about tech and was an annoying little kid that everyone hated. But, Jason took me under his wing, and taught me so many things IRC related, that it really started my geekyness. Then, with the help of all the people going in and out of chat, I learned so many things from program programming, to web-design. I used these tools to build this site, have my own IRC channel, and much much more, and they are the only reason that I have as much internet popularity as I do today. No matter what time of the day, someone from the mcintec community was always in the ventrilo server or on IRC that I could talk to, so I never felt alone. Without mcintec, this site would not exsist, I would not have 220 followers on twitter, I wouldn’t know how to run anything, and be a geek, and know my way around the internet, and met all of these people that I still keep in close contact. And, this all started because of this community.

I would now like to thank some of the people from the mcintec community that I no longer keep in close contact with:

Jason: Jason… Even though, he does not trust, nor respect me anymore, there was a time where we could tell each other anything and everything, and he was such a good outlet of everything that went on in my life, and I knew I could trust him. He gave me so many privileges in the channel, and on the vent server, which really made me feel like I actually mattered to some people. He brought all of these people together in one chatroom, on one stream, and in one vent server, that there are so many sub groups from the mcintec community, that I cant imagine not talking to all of these people now.

Scootz: Scootz has always been there for me, always, whether its 12:00pm or 5:00pm he is always there to give me wise advice, and coach me through any of my problems, and although he also does not trust me, for a while he felt like an internet father figure to me. He has taught me, and guided me through everything that I can imagine from VB, to html and php, and had extreme pacients for my temper, and stupidity.

Batty: Although he will no longer speak to me… Or at least I don’t think he will, batty has also taught me so much, and he is probably the smartest and most talented and intuitive person that I have ever talked to. And not only does he impress me every other second, but hes the only person where I know he thinks the same way about things as I do, and it upsets me that we no longer talk.

None of this would have happened without the mcintec community, and I also have to say that, I am sorry. I am sorry that I ruined peoples chances for staff after I left, I’m sorry I was a complete ass hole to everyone and used everyone, I am sorry I could not be there now with you guys to celebrate this day, and I am sorry to Jason for being an asshole to him. Happy anniversary mcintec.

Sorry I have not posted in like… Ever. I have been terribly sick and busy, as I will explain in the next post, but I thought I would make this a separate post because it is something I wanted to talk about. So my mother and my father found pictures of my arms and legs (don’t ask how, because even I don’t know.) And, of course they were in denial that it was me so they had me show them my arms and legs (sigh.) And… I knew that they were going to freak… And, I knew they were going to be disappointed and all this bull shit… But thats not the point. My mom said… “Maybe Falmouth High school isn’t for you. I mean, you have no friends.” I don’t think I will ever forget that (and I have this to remember it I guess.) “You have no friends.” THAT shows how much they know about me. NOT that I hung out with 3 of my friends that week, hung out with Sophie and Sarah over the weekend, and hung out with Elizabeth today. No… That is called, having no friends. I have FUCKING STALKERS! OF COURSE I HAVE FRIENDS! I have way to many friends its not even fucking funny. These friends are the ONLY reason why I am still fucking alive, because without them, I would have been dead by now. So, to any of my friends reading this… I thank you. I don’t know where I would be without all of you. Even some of you that I have never met (Floyd, Blaze, Gary, Darian, and others) you have really made a world of difference.

My response to that statement was…”Mom, if you take me out of Falmouth… I will hate you forever.” Because honestly, thats my fucking life, and is the only place where I feel semi welcomed. UGH! It pisses me off. Then she was all… I don’t know what else to do, you are failing out of high school. Once again, shows how much she knows… I AM NOT EVEN CLOSE TO FAILING! Big whoop, I am getting a D or two. ITS ONLY THE FIRST QUARTER DAMN IT! UGH. She pisses me off. And then shes all, if you don’t stop hurting yourself, and pick your grades up… We are going to send you to some serious counseling. FUCK THAT! (Side note… I am going to be uber pissed if people find this in my school because I mentioned it.)

We had some other fun talks…. But that was pretty much it. And now… Heres my 2 cents about the subject of therapist’s. Currently, right now, I fucking hate them. I hate them so much. This is going to probably offend some people, because, for me, I have friends to talk to, and in some peoples cases, they don’t have that, so a therapist is needed. But look at it from my point of view… WHY THE FUCK would I want a TOTAL stranger, who doesn’t know JACK SHIT about me, have me tell them all my DEEPEST issues, and the only reason they would do that is because of the fat checks they would get from my parents, and THEN knowing that they don’t give a flying fuck about me, tell my parents all the shit I told them when it is “confidential” BECAUSE HONESTLY, I have been fucking down that road, and it is fucking stupid. FUCK THERAPISTS, I HAVE FUCKING FRIENDS! *breaths* Sorry, I probably just pissed a lot of people off, but I don’t care all that much because to me, thats the truth, comment giving me your two cents, I dare ya.

Thats all for now, I am going to make a follow up post about myself in a bit. Toodaloo!

Okay, I know I did this post on my previous site, that I currently don’t know what happened to it… Oh well! Not a big deal. Anyways, this rant is going to be about TV advertisements and especially local TV ads (which are the worse.) So enjoy my rant among rants (viewers discretion is advised.)

Okay lets begin with POLITICAL ads (yes I said that.) We were talking about this in my English class, and we decided that holy fucking shit every other ad on the TV is either for McCain or Obama. And, we also said, that these commercials back-stab the other candidate, and do not appeal to ideas and facts, they appeal to emotion. And, most of the people, vote based on emotion, not on the facts, which is a different story but W.E. Now, with local ads, I swear that 2 different senator commercials came up in a row. Its like… THIS IS NOT A DEBATE PEOPLE! I WANT TO WATCH MY FUCKING SHOW! We already know who we are going to vote for. ALSO, I am pissed at one of the John McCain ads because they used The Weepies “Cant go back now” IN THEIR COMMERCIAL! Its like, NO, you do not use one of my favorite bands in a stupid ass McCain ad. Damn them.

Okay, enough with politics, now lets move on to… LOCAL ADS! Is it just me, or are local car ads probably the worse fucking thing that you have ever seen ever? At least in Maine they are. I mean there is this Bangor Louiston car care commercial, that I swear to god the guy is absolutely screaming outside in the middle of winter COME JOIN THE PARTY! He is like making a guy run through a hoop with a costume on? Uh… What? (Haha Elizabeth and Molly.) I want to just go into that place with presents and party hats and be like I CAME FOR THE PARTY! I mean, the ideas that they come up with are trying to be funny… IT DOESN’T WORK DUMB ASS! And, also I talked about this in the other post, Bob’s discount furniture… Oh Bob how you have been the worse ads on TV since … Ever. I mean, singing animated beds and nightstands? It is like, watching a rubber chicken get thrown against a wall (great analogy right?) And why is it the most corny slogans ever? AND, why is every month a sale at a car dealership? Its like they tell you every month that they are at a all time low, and there will never be a sale like this ever again, yet the next month or week even they have a “lower” price? Stupid call dealerships, Trix are for kids!

That wasn’t really much of a rant… Oh well, I don’t think that you guys mind! If you do, to bad your out of luck because you already made it this far in the post. I have been a very busy panda, with friends, drama, and all this UGH! I’ll write about it in a post when I get the chance.

Okay, this post is for blog action day 2008! I hope you all signed up and made a post, if you did, just make a comment or @ me on twitter and I will go and comment on it! I think this cause is really amazing, as I said in the previous post, and may inspire me to do better things with this silly little blog of mine. This years subject: Poverty. What can we do for the people on a local level?

Now, I am lucky enough to live in a nice, warm, big house in a secluded area with running water, heating, and internet. But, when I go into the city, I notice a large amount of homeless people on the streets, begging for money, or sleeping. Now, the people that were born into that kind of life style, could really not do anything about the position that they are in now, and I am not saying that half the homeless population brought it upon themselves, I am saying there is a reason why that is. Maybe, if we could just inspire the youth before they go out and give up, and fall into this endless cycle of doom we could reduce poverty. And for the homeless right now, I think the little things matter, like I know this old man, who plays the banjo by a local stadium. He is not begging for money, but he has his case open for donations. I talked to this man, and he is just a complete inspiration, and I wish we could give the same that he has given us, back to him. I usually give him a couple of dollars, and the expression on his face, is so heat warming, but depressing at the same time. Also, I just got an idea, I think it would be good for a more lucky school community (such as ours) to give another less rich community such as a neighboring town, an anonymous donations of items such as canned foods, winter clothing, and other necessities! If we can just do the small things, and let the larger, more funded groups do their part, we can definitely improve poverty on a local level. I’m trying very hard not to turn this into a rant about how our government is so corrupt, but I don’t think that is the point of this blog action day. Sorry I could not say much, I have a really huge essay to write! I hope who ever read this at least got something out of it. DON’T BE AFRAID TO COMMENT!

Okay this is going to be a very very quick post, and not the average post. This is to inform everyone about blog action day 2008. I just found out about it via bloggeries forum, and I just cant get enough of this idea. Basically what it is, is bloggers coming together and on October 15th, making a post about the issue - Poverty - It can be about anything related to it, and how we can reduce the poverty, and what we can do on a local scale, or a national scale. I think this really brings out the power, and the goodness that us bloggers can do! Fox news might have to think twice before attacking us again. I know what I am going to talk about. Do you? Register your blog here
Here is the video that got me inspired. They did a fabulous job making it.

Blog Action Day 2008 Poverty from Blog Action Day on Vimeo.

Haha okay, so, even though I have been very sick these past couple weeks, I have managed to write a second blog post for today. So, you may be wondering why I titled this post, I like your hair. Well… I DYED MY HAIR BLACK!… Again… This is the second time I have dyed my hair, but the last time I did it with Amy, and that didn’t go over well with my parents. And, I dyed my hair on Sunday, and today is Wednesday, and yet, they haven’t even noticed (mostly because I have not taken my hat off at home in the past four days.) I guess its good they haven’t found out yet so they cant blame it on Amy. Even though I DIDN’T EVEN DO IT AT AMY’S!

Okay, some of you may be wondering who Amy is… Well Amy Cook has been my best friend for about 14 years now. Her and her sisters have been through so much hell, and she has been there for me ALWAYS. We have not been hang out for a while because we have gone our ways over the past couple of years, and we have been both been very very busy. When I am at Amy’s, I feel like I am at my second home, because her mom and her sister’s treat me like I am part of there family. Her mom is just amazing! Even though I had to akwardly watch football with her step dad because they weren’t home when I got there… OH WELL! We went to Hanafords and Dunkin Donuts, and acted like idiots because we are cool like that. I got the dye at Hanafords :P. Tehe. When we were walking out though, this lady walked by us, looked at my jacket (which had a Pumpkin Festival sticker on it) (and it was the day after it) and said, “It was fun last night, wasn’t it?” IN THE MOST SKETCHIEST VOICE EVER! I started cracking up so hard, and Amy was like WHAT THE FUCK! Then she said, “The Pumpkin Festival.” I was like OH! Haha.

Anyways, about the hair, I dyed it black, and I was freaking out on the phone with Sophie when I did it, so I FUCKED IT UP SO BAD! Parts of it are black, parts of it are brown, some people said they couldn’t noticed that I fucked it up, some people laughed, the people who say I didn’t fucked up are lying to make me feel better. Damn BILL CLINTON! (Side note, I randomly have 20 tabs open in chrome right now.) Hopefully my parents wont notice it… Ever. That would be really sad if they couldn’t.

Okay so on Tuesday, me and Molly and Elizabeth hung out at ELIZABETH’S HOUSE! ELIZABETH IS AMAZING! Her Mom was kind of being a bitch, but its not that big of a deal. We explored out in the woods, hung out in a tree house, and went BIRD IGNORING! Okay, so if you don’t know what bird ignoring is, its where you go bird watching, and you follow the birds, but as soon as they notice you, you IGNORE THEM! Its very very amazing! You guys need to try it. Just remember, theres a difference between bird ignoring and bird avoiding. If you want the page click -here- After we did that, we played Rockband, and played TIMMA! AND THE LORDS OF THE UNDERWORLD! It was amazing. Elizabeth got like 95% on it, which is funny, and kind of disturbing at the same time. But, I got to play DDR again, which I haven’t in ages, because WE DON’T OWN IT! I don’t know why…

I decided to stay home today, because of being really sick, and I wanted to take a mental health day. I hate my teachers, and I hate school sometimes it feels like it will never end, and that we are not getting anywhere with this fucking bull shit we are learning. I watched MXC, and AIMed with Austin all day. I don’t know why he wasn’t at school though… Oh well! Thats what I have been up to these days!

I decided to keep this post separate from another post in the future because I thought it deserved its own post. Okay, well, it wasn’t just me and Molly that almost broke a world record, it was the Maine community, and the Cumberland, Maine community. With help of groups from everywhere and lots of schools coming together we were almost able to break a world record for kids and their families in the hospital. The record was the most pumpkins lit at one time, and the Cumberland Pumpkin Festival was almost able to do it. The world record was 30,128 and we were planning on getting 40,000 but we fell 7,000 short. Although we did not break a world record, it was amazing to be there, and was a lightning experience. Me and Molly carved “special” pumpkins before, and they were named Bobby and Timmy. They were very special looking, and were part of the almost world record! There were bands playing in the in-field, and stands were you could get food, and boxes of pumpkins that you could pick up and carve for free! The amount of pumpkins was absolutely, I cant even explain it, it was magical. There were carved pumpkins EVERYWHERE you looked, all shapes, colors, and sizes. The main attraction of course was the structures in the in-field. There was “Jack’s house” which was wooden slates, that held pumpkins, and it made a hole house structure. It was AMAZING! But then, this massive tower structure took your breath away with thousands of pumpkins stacked on them, and each one had a heart carved in it, to remember loved ones that have passed away. These were amazing during the day, but at night time they took your breath away. If you check out the plog page, you can see those structures. Me and Molly of course rocked out to 99 red balloons blasting on the stage, and ate so much food. We had to leave at 8:00pm because it was getting very cold, and we could not bare it anymore. We got shirts, stickers, and pumpkins! It was an amazing time, and whoever went thank you! It is something I wont forget.

God, ever since the last post, my life has been so boring it is not even funny. I haven’t hung out with anyone, and I have been so invested in school, that I am actually passing! It feels like no one even cares anymore… About anything… At all… Or, atleast I don’t! (Fail.) I just realized that I haven’t done (one of these) in a while! Weird. Also, random thought, I just learned how to spell tomorrow cerectly (No, Gary didn’t help me :P.) After 14 years… Seriously.

I have really just been geeky over the past week, and extremely busy with school, trying to get into a community (even though everyone hates me everywhere a crossed the internet.) Speaking of communities! I was looking around for some forums, and I was like huh, I wonder if they have any blog related forums… I found one site, that I love! It has a pretty big community (bigger then Kimya’s) but it isn’t so big that you feel you get lost in the amount of daily postings. Its called bloggeries, and the guy who owns it is really cool, so cool in fact that he even had time to DM me on twitter a couple of times! Now thats a good large scale website owner (unlike Chris Pirillo.) And, of course I have been chilling on Kimya’s site… I am not even going to bother linking it because you should already be on that website right now.

Okay, so I have this domain lying around right? And, I have no idea what to do with it (it doesn’t expire for another year.) So, I was thinking about selling it, but that never really fell through, so… I was going to ask you guys what you want to do with it (because you guys don’t suck.) So, there are a couple of things I could do with it… Give it away (to one of you as a contest,) forward it to here or try to install WP-MU and start a blogging community (or a forum based community.) What do you guys think? Email me, or leave me a comment!

I am pretty sure the highlight of my week was last night, because I probably bought the most amazing thing that I have wanted for so many years, and now just purchased! (Drum roll please.) An Invader Zim WRISTBAND (I know… Jump for joy, right?) You guys may not think it is that big of a deal, but to me, invader zim is pretty much my life… In a show. Anyways, thats not all that eventful, but it makes me a happy panda.

Oh, one more thing, with a tad bit of help from Brad, and a couple of tutorials, I successfully made my own wordpress theme! Wee! It really sucks, and the people down at bloggeries didn’t really like it either… But it is a start, and I am a complete noob at PHP, so for me, it was a big deal. I will give it to anyone on request… I cant really see why anyone would want it, but its there. Sorry I haven’t posted in a while, like I said, I have been really busy, and it is my dad’s birthday today (don’t wish him a happy birthday ;].)

Okay so, sorry I haven’t really posted in a while, I have been really busy with the fair and homework and failing school, so I haven’t had enough time to sit my ass down and write a post. Well… I did stay up until 4:00AM this morning txting with MOLLY! But anyways, ya!

Okay, I am going to start off with some interesting new site news! Wee! Okay, since dotlayer is a bitch and closing down forever, me, Blaze, Sam, and Tim needed a new hosting company. Sam and Tim found something I think, but me and Blaze were lucky enough to have a friend that runs a newly opened hosting company! I can not give the web address, but I can say! THANK YOU STU HELM! I am going to link you on my site, and have a ad for your hosting when the website goes public. I appreciate you going out of your way to host me and Blaze’s site! Anyways, besides the new hosting, which I still haven’t fully brought the site back to 100%, there is another cool new feature! I decided to open a forum! Yey! You can either click the forum button on the navigational bar at the top, or you can go to http://tylergraffam.com/forum! To Gary’s request I decided to make it so it wasn’t an iframe, even though I thought the idea was cool! This forum will be a general discussion for people who read my blog, and another more of a group type thing for depression, and self harm, and other not so happy stuff that you can share openly! So, I would really really like it if you guys would sign up! It would mean a lot!

Anyways, enough with the annoying site stuff. I am going to talk about the fair. Okay, the fair this year, is meh. It hasn’t been the best year because I have been working my ass off for it, and my grandmother was being a complete bitch about everything which was pissing me off. But, even after working at the fair, right now… There is really nothing to do that none of my friends want to do. None of my friends care about horse pulling, or horse racing, or any of that stuff. But, in the bunny barn, I swear to god there was the cutest, most adorable bunny that I have ever seen. Ever. It made me almost cry when I looked into its eyes. It was that emotional. Then there was this other rabbit, that was so fat, that it used its chin, as a pillow, for its chin, which is a pillow. So, it had a tripple chin. It was halarious! The bunny’s are adorable this year, probably the cutest out of any year ever! And, when me and Nina and Molly and Austin went to the fair, there was this pig, and we named him Steve, and we wanted to take him so home! He was just laying there, for auction. Steve is my best friend. Ever.

School has been complete shit, because I hate all of my teachers, and everyone in my class, and UGH! Oh, and I went to this halloween store with Elizabeth, and I needed to go to the store next to it for the bathroom, and I asked this lady who I THOUGHT worked there where the bathrooms were, and she was like “one momment please” and went to go asked a person who DID work there. I was like… WTF is wrong with you lady! Crazy people in this country, just plain crazy. And, at the store I bought these weird tubey thingy’s that when you shake them they sound like baby’s! Tehe! They are really annoying but halarious at the same time!